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Down, down, briefly up, then I’m back down here again.
It feels worse this time around. I want to puke, I want to sleep in and skip class tomorrow and it’s painful. 

I’ve been on anti-depressants for months now but I still have these episodes. Is this normal? Do other people feel this way, too? Does it happen to them as much as me?
Why does this happen to me? I can’t focus. I can’t study. I can’t sleep. This is a mental disability. How can I survive Med School being mentally disabled? Can I survive Med School even with this mental disability?
I try to console myself with a quote I found long ago:

Never give up. Today is hard, tomorrow will be worse, but the day after tomorrow will be sunshine.

-Jack Ma

But will it ever end?